Ask

Why yes I did miss a post last week. Things were quite crazy and as such I decided not to... and by decided I mean I forgot and then made the executive decision after it was too late anyways. I hate being late.. probably more than my dislike for coffee... maybe. 

But here we are. For the last few months... well pretty much most of this year I have been investing in myself. My leadership qualities, trying to become more outgoing (trying), and most importantly my walk with God. This blog was supposed to reflect that, but I got off track after Falling Down and it became more like a Sunday School lesson...

But, these past weeks have just shaken my world like I'm living on Whoville and Horton just tripped. Its not that I was going in the wrong direction or doing the wrong things, but I had come to the realization that I am at a crossroads. My life could go in at least four different directions, yes four, and I would be happy with all of them but one. I won't go into specific details because I know this guy... Joseph... that had a fantabulous coat... 

So I've been essentially sitting at this crossroads. Waiting. Waiting for that sign. That car to just come and pick me up and take me down the right one. Been praying, but mostly asking... for all the wrong things.

You see most people know the "If its not within Your will..." prayer, but my optimistic/positive side switched it around to "If it is in Your will..." which slowly transformed into me attempting to pray things into God's will for my life and that wont't work and on top of that God will give you things you ask for even when you don't need them or they will will hurt you rather than help you. 

Then we struggle right. We all do. and what do we do? Ask (of course) for a sign that things will get better, that we are on the right path blah blah blah, but deep down all this asking for signs is really eating at our trust of God. Instead of simply knowing that God has everything under control we are putting more trust into signs and coincidences. Which don't only come from God. Now don't get me wrong, God does speak through coincidences, but it is unmistakable when He does. If you just went through a 12-step program and just got released a better person and your car breaks down in front of a ABC store. Highly doubt God is giving you a hint...

This is also different from a Calling or when you are being led by God which will be felt with your heart, not seen by your eyes or heard with your ears. But how? Easy one you asked. Some clarification there.

It's like we are leaves praying for the rain. Nothing wrong with that. Leaves are on plants which need water to survive, but when the rain comes what does the water do? It beads up on the leaf and then falls off to get to where it really needs to go. The ground to get absorbed by the roots. Leaves don't need water they need sunlight, but they wanted rain and they got it.

Don't let blessings bead up in your life.

If you pray for a sign you'll get it. Plain and simple. You either will see something and assume it it is the right direction or not and assume it isn't. All the while not trusting in God in the process. If things are bad, pray they will get better, not that you'll get a sign that they will. There is no trust in that. 

When we pray over our food we aren't praying it is the correct food we are praying it is good for us. We already decided it was going in our stomach... Have you ever had someone ask you what to do for every thing after you already told them everything is under control, but yet they keep asking anyways?..... 

So yes, with a little more trust some a little more risk and I was recently told I was going to be making some less than certain decisions.. soon. Most will be good some will be bad... (hopefully). Yes bad choices will happen even when they seemed the best at the time, but guess who is the most gracious ever.. ever?

I'll give you 3 guesses and the first two don't count.